Okay, so I need to spill something because I can’t stop thinking about it, and if I don’t tell someone, I might actually explode.
A couple of days ago, I was running super late for my morning lecture. I threw on this cute skirt – like, short but not too short, you know? – and a basic crop top. I was about to grab a pair of underwear when I realized I was completely out of clean ones. Normally, I’d just wear the ones from the day before (ew, I know, but whatever), but for some reason, I just… didn’t. I was like, What’s the worst that could happen? and just went for it.
The second I stepped onto campus, I could feel the difference. The way the skirt moved against my skin, how I had to be so careful when I sat down or climbed the stairs to my lecture hall – it was equal parts terrifying and kinda thrilling. I kept looking around, wondering if anyone could tell. My heart was racing every time I walked past people, especially this guy from my class that I’ve had a crush on forever.
When I got to the lecture hall, I had to sit in the front row because all the back seats were taken. I was so aware of how exposed I felt, especially with the professor standing right there. At one point, I dropped my pen and had to bend over to pick it up, and I swear it felt like the entire room was staring at me. I don’t even know if anyone actually noticed, but the thought that they might have was low-key driving me crazy in the best way.
Here’s the weird part, though: I felt weirdly… confident? Like, I usually hate participating in class, but that day, I raised my hand and answered a question without even overthinking it. And I killed it. The professor even gave me a compliment, which, like, never happens. After class, my crush came up to me and was like, “Hey, you killed it today.” We ended up walking to the cafeteria together, and we’ve been texting ever since.
I don’t know if it was the adrenaline from my little secret or what, but I felt like a totally different person that day. Now I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m not saying I’m gonna make this a regular thing, but… it’s kinda addicting, you know? The thrill of knowing something no one else does, the way it makes you feel like you’re in control of everything.
Anyway, that’s my confession. I feel like I should be embarrassed, but honestly? I’m not.
